I didn't think I was that bad off, but I was. Looking back, I was in a pretty dark place much of the time. I'd have good days, but mostly I was internally crappy... REALLY crappy! Frankly, I really hated life. I guess that leaked out on those around me.
How could it not?
Nothing was the BIG turning point really, but at some point I got tired of it. I started treating myself to my favorite food at the Chinese buffet. That in turn made me start to CRAVE salads (once in a while I go through phases of eating salads).
Eating salads made me thin down a bit, cleaned up my system, and gave me a better perspective on life... THAT in turn gave me the desire to start walking at lunch. Walking became walking FAST - then I bought ankle weights - then wrist weights... OH! And an MP3 player!!
Then I got a chin-up/sit-up bar for home, some lifting weights... The bottom line is somewhere in there I realized my crabby mood was chemical as much as anything. Now, I have energy and I LOVE EVERYONE. Life is sweet and I think my mood and attitude is better than it has been in years.
I feel like I'm coming out of a dark, dense, foul-smelling fog.
The bottom line is... if you are feeling like I was, crabby, cynical, hating everyone and everything - at whatever level make some changes.
GET UP, GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING!
As the yearbook quote goes, "If you keep doing what you're doing... you'll keep getting what you're getting." Also, we are passing out of Winter - and that gives people what they call the "SAD" or the Winter Blues.
Here are some articles that might help you out.
Now, get up and do something.
